He knows how BADLY I want to know where we're going. So after work, he went up to the admin office to see what the deal was. They told him that the orders come in at 3am every day and to check online then to see if his come in.
Well, he decided to share that bit of info with me... and that's where he went wrong.
The whole rest of the day I stared at the clock... waiting and waiting for it to get closer and closer to 3.
I probably have THE WORST anxiety known to man... and once something like this is on my mind... it takes a whole lot for me to forget about it.
The night rolled in... and by 11:45 I was in bed. Just laying there... staring at the ceiling... bored... anxious... nervous... still just laying there.
Countless attempts to shut my eyes were easily defeated by the adrenaline that was cooking in my veins.
There was one thing on my mind. Just ONE thing. I wanted it to be 3:00.
FINALLLLLLLLYYYYYY!!!!!!
It was here! 3 am was HERE!
Now it was just me, my computer, and my typing fingers!!
And there it was.... IT.... was nothing.
NOTHING.
just nothing.
I felt all of the happiness drain out of my being.
All the adrenaline in my blood slowly turned into a flood of tears.
I just didn't understand WHY...
Why has everyone else received their orders & we haven't?
All the anxiety that was ripped out of me turned into disappointment.
I wanted to cry, scream, run in the snow naked... anything.
But instead I just crawled my hopeless body into bed.
And that is where I spent the entire day.
Wondering WHEN we will get our oders.
I hope you guys enjoyed my "Hyperbole & a half" inspired post! There will def be more to come!
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