the "goodbye" is setting in

This is my millionth S.O.S.

I just need to be out of here- away from this town. There is NOTHING for me here. My family life hasn't gotten any better. My mother's mental condition is just going downhill & without being treated or excepting it... makes it impossible to live with her. But thats why I got my apartment- except my roommates "do things I dont morally approve of".  Fantastic... right? I mean it's not that it's completely horrible there... I quit my job though... and so having money to survive off of is a bit difficult. Though I'm feeling pretty down right now, I know that everything is going to get better. Things have been far worse before. & it just shows how strong I am. A's wise words just replay through my head. It's because of him why I've been able to pick myself up & regain strength.

Only 22 more days until I'm in A's arms for his Power School graduation 30 days till we're off to New York.

Now I just wish that I could find a fast forward button... But there are A LOT of people that I need to say goodbye to. The hardest is going to be BFF. She's been by my side for the past 5 years... and life is going to be so weird without being around her. I love her more than words can ever describe. She came over today & we were lazy & watched Army Wives together. It was nice.
(her blog) -that sums up why I love her!

Though I'm so ready to get out of here.... some things make me realize that this is all a little bittersweet.