Oh my gosh guys!
Soooo much has happened in the past few days.
Alex & I got a house!!! :D
2 story, 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom, private garage, laundry room w/ washer & dryer, gated yard w/ patio & garden area & it has solar panels!!
Yeah... Dream home much?? :D
We moved in on Friday... Because on Thursday....
ALEX FOUND OUT HE WAS DEPLOYING.
when? On Saturday!!!
That gave us 2 days to prepare/move.
They wouldn't release any details about how long he would be gone... When he was coming back... Or where he was going. No answers at all.
When he left Saturday afternoon, I cried until I didn't have anymore tears. I washed my face, calmed down & took a deep breath. I know I'm going to be okay. I have everything I need to survive on my own. I just have to learn how to be a big girl.
My friend Tara came over and rescued me for the night. (: Thank goodness I have her! I had a lot of fun with her (I always do) but it didn't matter how much I was smiling or laughing... My body has this permanent feeling of heartbreak & anxiety. I miss Alex so much.... It literally hurts.
Last night was my first night alone in the house. I called my mom & of course texted bff... She's my rock.
Tara checked on me every once and a while... And believe it or not... I WAS OKAY! (:
aside from missing Alex, I am happy. I'm so in love with my house! I'm active here... The sun shines here lol and I have an amazing friend here.
This is my first deployment, guys.
So far, so good.
My husband is in a submarine in the middle of the ocean somewhere.
But I'm okay.
Just please keep me in your prayers.
<3
Ah girl! So for some reason I had never been following your blog even though I had read it before? So now, I am following! I'm so sorry about Alex just having to get up and leave..I couldn't imagine. If you need anything or someone to talk to, get a hold of me! I know how deployments can make you feel/think!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the new house. Keep yourself busy and decorate it! :)